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myslim na to, jak jsme se seznámili, jakou jsem měla radost a zároveň strach když jsem na něj čekala a jela k němu, jak jsem se celej den usmívala, jak se na mě usmíval on, jak jsme koukali na telku a on mě poprvý objal, jak voněl, jak mě poprvý políbil, jak dychal když spal, jak na mě ráno mluvil a řikal ať nechodim, jak jsem z něj nemohla spustit oči, když spal, jak mě vždycky pozdravil, když jsme si volali, jak jsem byla smutná jenom proto, že neodepsal ..

teď je všechno pryč .. už nic z toho nebude ..

nemůžu jídlo ani vidět, na úkoly do školy nevidim přes rozbrečený oči, když se chci smát, pohnu jenom koutkem a zase jsem mimo, když dokážu usnout, probudí mě hnusnej sen ...

co já jsem to provedla proboha??

nechci znít jako blázen, ale chci mít nehodu .. při který ztratim paměť .. a pojedu odznova .. lidi o mě budou vědět, ale já o nich ne a společně s nimi nebudu vědět o jejich názorech o mě .. a já se sice budu učit opět chybama, jako celej můj život, ale ne takovýma .. jo a fajn, tohle nemůžu vědět, ale já to vim a vědět taky budu ..

potřebuju spát, ale nemůžu .. kdyby tu byla aspoň jedna krásná věc, která by dokázala to všechno co jsem způsobila poslat na chvilku někam a já mohla spát a mít i hezký sny ..

starostí a zkušeností jsem měla hodně, ale nikdy jsem se necítila být tak na dně ..

lost

i can't stop thinking about him .. its so hard to eat, learn, sleep, do homeworks, laugh ..
please, i want to be with him oh my god '((

i'm so hungry and tired .. and i cant cry enaugh, im not bale to .. i cried too much before and now i just cant ..






Z

call me DUMB BITCH

Ok, so my new opinion about me??
stupid, ubnormal, mental ... oh god
i dont now what to do now with me .. i'we done so much BAD things .. and all without any reason

and i love one guy .. but i've broken his heart yesterday .. i hate myself so much .. i want to run out and me somebody else or just move to another country, make some new name, change my look etc etc etc ..

and my name will be Deborah .. i love it so much .. my daughter will be Deborah and i know it better than anything else ..

gosh .. please somebody .. hit me so much that i'll get normal and i'll first think and than i'll do ..

i cant do nothing .. and it hurts so much :'(
why the hell i'm so stupid .. i need CHANGE .. the biggest which is possible to have ..

so please, learn to say NO.
and than teach it me .. its the only one thing which i want .. when i dont think about him ..

i hate theese negative adds .. but a needed to write something .. to write how i feel now ..

kill me, please

..protože když něco konečně najdu, po čem toužim tak strašně dlouho, tak si to nehorázně poseru
mam chut jít něco rozmlátit, vyrvat si vlasy .. za tohle se tak nesnášim
a vim že kdybych dokázala věřit, tak se to nikdy nestane

LOOKBOOK.nu: "sobre" by Kristina Eliz

LOOKBOOK.nu: "sobre" by Kristina Eliz: "Leather Bag from Mng, Plaid Shirt, Stripy Vest, Leggins"

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!!!!!

HELL YEAH!!!!!

that feelin' .. so proud on ours country .. thanks!

CZECH REPUBLIC !!!

hezky česky

koukám tady na všechny svoje starý příspěvky a tak s řikám ..
"proč k..sakra jsem začala vlastně psát anglicky, když v tom nejsem ani tak prvotřídní?!"
jo je to docela píčovina, ale prostě mam náladu, kdy musim přemýšlet jenom nad věcma jako je tohle .. jako například - postupně si uvědomuju, co všechno jsem dokázala letos prošvihnout .. opět designfest supermarket, opět code mode, neopět czech grand design a hlavně na designbloku jsem byla jenom JEDNOU! ale asi to nebylo jenom tak, ten loňskej se mi líbil víc .. nevim jak vám

musim se vrátit k ještěčeskýmu článku z června, kdy jsem hrotila hrozně deskriptivu a matiku moc ne, protože to pro mě byla jasná 4ka .. a víte co .. stejně jsem nakonec dostala z deskriptivy 3ku a z matiky jsem musela dělat reparát v srpnu (ale dala jsem ho na 2!!) .. jo mladý = blbý

taky mam novej cíl - trochu jsem si zvedla laťku
nejdřív jsem hrozně moc chtěla na čvut a to vás můžu ujistit, že tohle ze mě naprosto spadlo .. dělat přijímačky z fyziky, kterou zvládám jenom díky tomu, že máme ve třídě kluka co propadl a má zadání z loňska?? haha jo .. jasně. a hlavně .. už ten název .. České vysoké učení technické v Praze .. to je na mě moc složitý .. a takžééééé...éé .. é

jsem se rozhodla pro něco hezčího co mnohem líp zní - Vysoká škola uměleckoprůmyslová (..v Praze)
že tam berou asi 10lidi/200? jo já vim .. proto řikám "trochu jsem si zvedla laťku" (viz začátek třetího odstavce - god.)

hele a hlavně zjišťuju, po tom co tu píšu tak hezky česky, že ta ajina se mi líbí víc .. sice tady mužu používat ruzný slova, nebo si je trochu pozměnit tak, že dávaj smysl ale vůbec neexistujou a ne jako v angličtině, kdy vám nic nepřeloží blbou kouličku aka balldie .. jo, je to fakt na h..trus.

tim trusem jse si hlavně vzpomněla na další "cíl" .. spíš plán - nemluvit sprostě, nekrkat nahlas a nechovat se jako chlap .. jsem přece ŽENA, sakra!

mějte sé* ( a držte palce ČEŠIIII .. haha jo, jsem ticho.)

world championship

maybe most of u know, that today is the DAY with the biggest D which exist
why?
cause today will czech representation team of ice hockey battle with russia for gold, for a title of the BEST REPRE TEAM OF THE WORLD 2010

ok i've just devised this title, but what? they'll really have this title if they'll win!

but what is more important for me?
tomorow i'm goig on new tests and i hope, that i'll be finally healthy!! gosh, please, wish me luck .. cause i'm really scared, cause from tomorrow starts my practices from school, so i'll be with a lot of architectures and with one of a biggest czech building company - metrostav

so i hope you'll enjoy last weekend day at most!
love, peace and a lot of money!! ))

love K-e.*

INFO ABOUT TODAYS BATTLE CZXRU

let me be myself

oh guys u know what..? i really LOVE gossip girl, but oposite, i really HATE gossips!

my last 2y were accompained with gossips of all kinds .. ofcourse about me
i was still thinking "its ok, its gonna be ok .. sometimes" .. but its not.
everybody is dealing with everything what i do, but why the hell do they?!
i am not saying that i never said something about somebody behind their back, but i am not interested in all the details!!

"who did she fucked with..?"
"why the hell is she laughing so loud?"
"that dumb bitch has the same back like me.."
"u know what? i heard that she slept with all her trainers!!"
"SHE IS JUST WHORE!"

but do u know anything about me..?
ok, this is blog, everybody can read this, but i hope that this will read somebody who is saying theese blurbs ..

just tell me please -
why the hell am i bitch? me, hwo slept onldy with one boy after 8months, me who is not able to believe them, me ho was in 14y raped by 3stupid guys?

god please, tell me that this is just ugly dream ..

and u know what? if 'everybody' behave like a couple of bitches, i'll be bitch too ..

sick'n'bored

Ok guys, trully .. i absolutely forgot on my blog
now its 12th day when im sick and bored at home so i was thinking "what about to make some blog?" EH?! i really dont understand how could this happen .. but its ok, before 30mins i've wrote just blogspot.com and what? I'VE SEEN MY PROFILE yipeeeee!!! so thnaks to google chrome, that its able to remember ours passwords nd nicknames haha )

but ok, now about some news around me

i'm still single, still sick, still checking nylon tv, still shooting something .. everything around my free time is unchanged, but future?
future is looking AMAZING!!

my dad has a company with steel constructions and now he has a chance to work in Paris on one construction aaaaaaaaand .. and simply he cant speek english and for my studyin' on technical school (architecture), im able to speak about it and it means what? it means that i'll be daddy's translator and i'll met a lot of worl known architects, designers etc! and i'll be in Paris for that long time till the construction won't be finished

uh god .. i'll be living my dream ))
and maybe i'll finally practise (and first learn more) my french .. gosh ))

so thanks for reading my blurbs (maybe again) and cee ya soon!!
(i promise i'll dont forget!! )) )

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P.S.
u havent seen this so .. suprise! my tattooooo wohooou )))
i hope u like it
(for not knowin' guys - its marilyn monroe's signature)

don't get in LOVE

all the beautiful and sunny days i was still sad n thinking about my ex. his name is "Peter" (for ex.). we were together before christmas 08 and it was really really beautiful relationship, but in some time, my grandma couln't stay, walk, move.. her backspone was in a can. she isn't so slim, so they weren't able to do some operation with her, because it was danger for her life.

and troubles began.. my grandma was unreasonably handicaped, mum had so much work, that she was not able to do something, daddy was not intersted in and who was next? my stepfather, yeah. it was him, who was helping us at all. but i wasn't ok. i was absolutelly done with my nerves. and thats why my relationship with Peter finished. i didn't go away, i went just to school and sometimes on my training. that was all. and some internet? maybe just blog, but i think that not this, but some other. but what .. now to say whats happening NOW

yesterday began school and i was on one goodbye party. with peter. trully .. that party was on his cottage. we were talking there about our EXrelationship and we both were thinking, that it'll be good to try it again. oh my god nobody knows, how happy i was! i was thinking, that my heart will melt in one second. this feeling was proceeded for one day. haha yeah, just for ONE day. Peter is really wonderful boy, but am feeling that he is not interested in our relationship. .. he behaves like somebody strange, like some guy, who just know me and who is giving me kiss on cheek without reason.

oh god please, say me what i can do. i didnt write everything, these things are just small happening from my last days and in fact its more more more worse.

fuckin' love.
i don'T want to be in love..
i just feel terrible and absolutely trashy..

from prague to greece

finally!
thomorrow am going on Zakynthos - greece island. am soooo lookin' forward it!

last 3weeks i was feeling terrible.
guys, school, friends, family .. always i met just problems and fights. but now?
i'll enjoy it at all .. just relax, no gossips, sunshine, sea with beautiful white send and absolutelly wonderful weather!

so enjoy it here, i'll find some internet caffee or maybe i'll bring my notebook with me :)

now its time to eat and get my things into all the bags or .. maybe i'll don't get so much things - SCHOPPIIIIIIIIIING! ♥

new plan: new wardrobe from thereinbefore to heels :)

where's MJ?

this is impossible. i cant believe, michael "isn't" ..
am listening him all my life, i've got all his cd's, i was on musical about his live (thriller live), i had a tickets to london on his concert and now..

bu ti know, he will never die, he'll be always alive and he will never leave us, because he is music, he is dance and he is king which everybody is looking for, but am sure, the king is MJ.

i'll miss u
love u forever nd never forget you
♥ kristina eliz.

sex - starved

oh god that one guy.
he is soooo sexy.
his eyes, lips uuuuh.

today i spoke with him .. haha nd he is hornmad too .. but much more .. haha deviation :D

you know, its practically one month i hadnt sex .. maybe am really nympha
......after my (sex - starved) daddy.

how hereditary..

my HOLIDAY PLAN

ok ok i know, you are not askin' me what i'll be doing, but its only one thing, which advanced me when i was wondering about what to write here. so i just said to myself "ha ok i'll write about my holidays .. nobody is interested in it, but what"
so fine, lets introduce you with my holiday plan...

1.) 10/7/09 - 18/7/09
going on Zakynthos for one week
2.) 18/7/09 - 25/7/09
SSDS, what means Summer Street Dance School, its with BDS academy where am dancing .. this week will be just about being drunk haha
3.) 2/8/09 - 8/8/09
concentration training with BDS .. am a little bit nervous from this week, cause on last night is waiting everybody in bds, cause trainers are choosing peoples to better or worst groups .. am now in group D and we have groups from A to K.. god.
4.) .../8/09
shopping somewhere in germany or in wien with daddy
5.) 28/8/09
OSTRAVA CITY ♥

and than? than is just school and that terrible learning for everything ..

nd just one last information

I - H-A-T-E - G-U-Y-S-!-!-!-!-!

who know's descriptive geometry??

ohhh god.

school year is comming to the end - finally, but my marks at school? eh. ok its not so bad, but math and that fuckin descriptive geometry are the worst for me now.. every other marks are ok for me, i've got just A,B and sometimes C, but math is for D and DEG is for nothing, cause i havent got so much marks, eh. so am now drawing some plans aaaand who knows, maybe it'll be ok and that big and ugly D will be just one. 

and whats next? today was one big 'good bye party for bds'. it was not about it, that we all'll get drunk, but it was about showing our formations to our friends, parents etc. in every group is about 24ppl, in capitel old category is 9groups in our dance studio nd i'm in group called D. in czech its HVK D. but today? every group had at least half ppl of their group, but from ou group D we were just 9ppl. like idiots. uh nd now am waiting for next year. shit, so long time without bds (thats name of our dance studio..). i think i'll get a little crazy without all that my lovely idiot heads, without trainers and without DANCE! 

help help help. i miss dance already now. :(