let me be myself

oh guys u know what..? i really LOVE gossip girl, but oposite, i really HATE gossips!

my last 2y were accompained with gossips of all kinds .. ofcourse about me
i was still thinking "its ok, its gonna be ok .. sometimes" .. but its not.
everybody is dealing with everything what i do, but why the hell do they?!
i am not saying that i never said something about somebody behind their back, but i am not interested in all the details!!

"who did she fucked with..?"
"why the hell is she laughing so loud?"
"that dumb bitch has the same back like me.."
"u know what? i heard that she slept with all her trainers!!"
"SHE IS JUST WHORE!"

but do u know anything about me..?
ok, this is blog, everybody can read this, but i hope that this will read somebody who is saying theese blurbs ..

just tell me please -
why the hell am i bitch? me, hwo slept onldy with one boy after 8months, me who is not able to believe them, me ho was in 14y raped by 3stupid guys?

god please, tell me that this is just ugly dream ..

and u know what? if 'everybody' behave like a couple of bitches, i'll be bitch too ..

sick'n'bored

Ok guys, trully .. i absolutely forgot on my blog
now its 12th day when im sick and bored at home so i was thinking "what about to make some blog?" EH?! i really dont understand how could this happen .. but its ok, before 30mins i've wrote just blogspot.com and what? I'VE SEEN MY PROFILE yipeeeee!!! so thnaks to google chrome, that its able to remember ours passwords nd nicknames haha )

but ok, now about some news around me

i'm still single, still sick, still checking nylon tv, still shooting something .. everything around my free time is unchanged, but future?
future is looking AMAZING!!

my dad has a company with steel constructions and now he has a chance to work in Paris on one construction aaaaaaaaand .. and simply he cant speek english and for my studyin' on technical school (architecture), im able to speak about it and it means what? it means that i'll be daddy's translator and i'll met a lot of worl known architects, designers etc! and i'll be in Paris for that long time till the construction won't be finished

uh god .. i'll be living my dream ))
and maybe i'll finally practise (and first learn more) my french .. gosh ))

so thanks for reading my blurbs (maybe again) and cee ya soon!!
(i promise i'll dont forget!! )) )

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P.S.
u havent seen this so .. suprise! my tattooooo wohooou )))
i hope u like it
(for not knowin' guys - its marilyn monroe's signature)