let me be myself

oh guys u know what..? i really LOVE gossip girl, but oposite, i really HATE gossips!

my last 2y were accompained with gossips of all kinds .. ofcourse about me
i was still thinking "its ok, its gonna be ok .. sometimes" .. but its not.
everybody is dealing with everything what i do, but why the hell do they?!
i am not saying that i never said something about somebody behind their back, but i am not interested in all the details!!

"who did she fucked with..?"
"why the hell is she laughing so loud?"
"that dumb bitch has the same back like me.."
"u know what? i heard that she slept with all her trainers!!"
"SHE IS JUST WHORE!"

but do u know anything about me..?
ok, this is blog, everybody can read this, but i hope that this will read somebody who is saying theese blurbs ..

just tell me please -
why the hell am i bitch? me, hwo slept onldy with one boy after 8months, me who is not able to believe them, me ho was in 14y raped by 3stupid guys?

god please, tell me that this is just ugly dream ..

and u know what? if 'everybody' behave like a couple of bitches, i'll be bitch too ..