call me DUMB BITCH

Ok, so my new opinion about me??
stupid, ubnormal, mental ... oh god
i dont now what to do now with me .. i'we done so much BAD things .. and all without any reason

and i love one guy .. but i've broken his heart yesterday .. i hate myself so much .. i want to run out and me somebody else or just move to another country, make some new name, change my look etc etc etc ..

and my name will be Deborah .. i love it so much .. my daughter will be Deborah and i know it better than anything else ..

gosh .. please somebody .. hit me so much that i'll get normal and i'll first think and than i'll do ..

i cant do nothing .. and it hurts so much :'(
why the hell i'm so stupid .. i need CHANGE .. the biggest which is possible to have ..

so please, learn to say NO.
and than teach it me .. its the only one thing which i want .. when i dont think about him ..

i hate theese negative adds .. but a needed to write something .. to write how i feel now ..